I haven’t posted here in a very long while. Time is all of a sudden slipping out of my hands. I have less than a month left abroad, and even less time left in Amsterdam. I’ve been living in denial, so I’m doing this here and now. The countdown:
24 days left in Europe
7 days left in Amsterdam
That’s even scarier in writing than I thought.
Since I last posted about Rome, lots of amazing things have happened. I found out I’ll be working my dream job this summer in New York City, I experienced the greatest holiday known to mankind, Queensday, and fell in love with Amsterdam just a little bit more, and I’ve also been hosting my Dad, showing him the life I’ve come to cherish here in Amsterdam (we’re currently in Berlin, the sixth city I’ve traveled to while abroad).
And now, just a couple of weeks after I was beginning to look forward to returning back home to the grand old U.S.A., I desperately want to dig my heels into the Amsterdam ground (or sink my anchor into a canal) and never let go of my life in this city.
My group of friends here use the term “separation anxiety” quite liberally: “sepanx,” or, for more emphasis, “sepangssss” happens when we are forced to separate from one another, particularly after a gezellig day or evening. I’m currently having some major sepanx from Amsterdam. Even though I have three trips coming up that I am positive are going to be wonderful (London, Prague, and Barcelona), I’m also getting queasy over the idea of spending any amount of time away from my home. That’s another thing, I have now completely embraced the term “home” for Amsterdam- though I was reticent in the beginning to use that label for my study abroad city, everything about Amsterdam has become just that, my home. The way the canals look while bathed in sunlight, my legitimately perfect loft apartment that I could live in forever (and desperately need to post photos of on this blog), my favorite breakfast spot whose scones have changed my life, the coffee shop that encapsulates everything a perfect study spot should be, my terribly shitty bike that is extraordinarily uncomfortable to ride and yet always gets me from point A to point B, and the group of people I am lucky enough to be with every day in Amsterdam and call my best friends.
The moral of the story? I’m making a promise to myself to spend every day I have left abroad, especially in Amsterdam, doing everything left on that bucket list of mine, resisting the urge to sleep and instead staying out late, visiting all of my beloved haunts until I’m actually sick of them, soaking up the people I’ll eventually have to say goodbye to at the end of this month, and letting study abroad show me everything it has left to offer.
Here goes nothing everything.